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Not much going on!

Sorry I haven’t been writing for a while, but honestly my life has become very “vanilla” lately! Not much to put on this blog…hopefully that will change soon! I bought a 3 year membership to a gym recently and so far so good. It’s very close to home, so I should be going often. So far, it’s been about 4 times a week. :-)

I figured out what my problem is!

I’m depressed in the winter. And, I have allergies. No amount of attention from MC seems to help.

Here’s what I did: I lit up my apartment. I got 2 natural light floor lamps and this thing

It’s called a light box. It is about 12 inches high, and it sits on my desk. It emits negative ion’s 24 hours a day, which reduces allergens. The light just stays off, except for 30-60 minutes a day when I do my “light therapy”.  I just sit in front of it, and read or work on the computer and after the prescribed amount of time, it shuts off. That’s all. My appetite is diminished, which is great, and my energy seems to be up. I’ve been sleeping better at night, and I have more energy during the day. I’ve already re-organized 2 closets and I’m getting ready to start a container garden on my balcony.

No spanking for now, folks. MC has been busy with his writing and his new publishing company. I’m not being totally neglected though – just nothing picture -and- story-worthy.

Holy Cow, it’s been a long time

Apologies!

This has been a crazy holiday season for me, visiting family and friends. I’m going to get back to writing (and playing!) very very soon!

tigger

I haven’t forgotten about the blog…

Things have just been busy around here, and not much spanking going on!

Hopefully, Monday, MC and I will have some playtime.

Regarding my diet: I’ve done “ok” – we are eating healthy foods – oats, beans, etc. We might be eating a little too much, though. We also went out to eat a few times (I think I had a hamburger a couple of times!) which is a no-no for almost any diet.  Exercise has gone by the wayside as the weather got colder. I actually like cold weather, so that’s not a good excuse.

Truth be told, we’ve been lazy. We’ve been watching movies, making christmas plans and doing what we darn well please! I’ve managed to keep up on the chores, but it’s an afterthought rather than something that I do on purpose.

DD was sick and home from school Monday and Tuesday, so my time was spent trying to get her well.  She’s feeling better and is back to school today.

Now  you see why I haven’t been writing. I really dont have much to write about – and I’m even boring myself at this point!

Feeling better

Ok, don’t read too much into that last post. I was having a hard time last night, and felt I was losing MC.  I feared I was going to lose him right when I’ve allowed myself to trust and love him most.  He assured me I was not, could not, and would not – but I could not be consoled.  I didn’t sleep well last night at all. Probably 2 hours, total and I woke up about a thousand times because of short nighmares.  I don’t think MC slept well, either. The light of day offered little comfort, and I was still in a bad way until about noon. Things have become more clear, and I am feeling better.

Funny thing is I wound up losing 1.8 pounds this week (I lost 3 pounds since yesterday!). Probably water weight from all the crying…  It’s a good thing that MC is strong- willed and not easily run off.  

As a result of my panic attack (that’s all I can call it, really) MC and I didn’t have our schedule playtime today.  Our next opportunity will be in about 10 days… *sigh*.   We watched “How the grinch stole christmas” and “kiss me kate” this afternoon. Both light, and easily digested.

Tomorrow will be a “chore” day, so that we can have a family day on Sunday.  It’s nice to have a weekend when we can all be together. 

It’s days like today that I could really use some hard play- punishment even. I know MC  forgives me for losing it, but I don’t know how to forgive myself, sometimes.

Tomorrow is a new day, and a new start. I’m so fortunate to be married to  a man who loves me, with all of my faults and crazy-making. I definately keep it to a minimum, and I’m sure he’s grateful for that.  I am not  a drama queen – and I run from drama. It’s just right now I’m basically a housewife, and no one ever told me how scary that can be – to be totally dependent on someone for support – not only now, but if they were to die…  Well, I have to not think about that right now. I just got over it my last “episode”.   lol  

Thank you MC, for being who you are.

Your’s forever, tigger

Either way, I lose

I don’t want to lose you, while I still love you

But how do I stop loving you, when you’re part of me?

My life as a hermit

Tigger…

This isn’t easy for me to admit, but I think I’m depressed. I’m sleeping most of the day away, and I’m not motivated to do much of anything. MC suggested that I leave for a walk each day after DD gets to school. I think it’s a good idea. Today I slept off and on almost all day until DD got home from school. I don’t like to do that. It’s a total waste of time, and of my life. I went to the grocery store with MC a couple of days ago, and I was looking at expiration dates, thinking things with a date of 11/01/09 were expired. I actually thought it was 2009! I’ve been inside, with my own thoughts, I’ve actually bored myself into thinking it’s a whole different year!

MC says that if I would just get outside, I would feel better.  He’s a wise man.  As it is, I’m staying indoors all day, and boring myself half to death. I make lists of things to accomplish, and don’t do them. I’ve even started looking for jobs – which is unnecessary and unproductive. I have a job, and one that I can do at home, at that! I just have to figure out how to motivate myself to actually do it.

Honestly, I think my life is just too good to keep my interest. Life has always been sort of difficult, but this year, it became very simple. DD is managing her own schedule and transportation to school. Our rent is lower, MC got a raise, we have enough money to cover our bills, we have good health insurance, and MC and I are back on track, in our love life. Nothing to complain about. Nothing to get too excited about.

 

Fit….

I’m not doing awesome on my diet goals. But, tomorrow is a new day. Hopefully I can get away to take a walk. I’m still up a pound from last official weigh in. I have until Thursday morning to bring it down. I haven’t really eaten that poorly  – but my portions are sort of out whack. I think I ate 3 cups of raisin bran today.

To be tied…

Playtime and/or punishment (hoping for less of the later and more of the former) is still scheduled for this Friday. MC and I are going to try to attend a couple of munches this month, to connect with others with kinky interests. We might be able to fit a play party in, in January. December is just too full of holidays and chaos.

Twenty MC Faults (this post is gonna get me spanked for sure!)

I’ve been accused of being blind to MC’s faults, and MC has been accused of having no faults! Ha! Let me dispel that myth right now:

• 1) MC likes morning sex – bad breath, having to pee and all – he wants it. I hate it.
• 2) MC clacks his teeth with his fork when he takes a bite.
• 3) MC absolutely cannot eat chips quietly, or with his mouth closed
• 4) MC spends WAY too much time in front of his computer (granted, he is actually accomplishing things – writing, website design, etc.)
• 5) Most of the time, I go to bed alone – about 4 hours ahead of MC
• 6) MC sneezes so loudly that I jump every time
• 7) MC steals restaurant mints by the pocketful (buying them at the store would just hurt his cheap heart)
• 8) MC is a slob. If it was up to him, he’d have clothes and dishes in every room of the apartment. Yet, he will stoop over to pick up a piece of lint off the carpet.
• 9) MC collects paper. Whatever it is – brochures, tissues, paper towels, receipts, bags – it’s all on his desk. It’s a fire hazard. I get spanked for throwing any of it away.
• 10) MC takes his shoes off and rubs sock remnants (i.e. toe jam) all over the carpet under his desk. Then you-know-who has to get under there to clean it up. Don’t ask me if it smells – I don’t know- I hold my breath.
• 11) MC waits until the kitchen is perfectly clean to go cook bacon on the high setting and splatter grease everywhere.
• 12) MC talks to himself in the morning. I used to take this personally, because it sounds like he’s grumbling – he’s just leaking random thoughts because he can’t hold any more hot air in his head.
• 13) For a dominant, MC is really lazy. I have to take down my own pants, lower my own panties, get myself over his lap, and occasionally hand him the implement of destruction. I’m surprised I don’t have to spank myself.
• 14) MC uses my comb to comb his hair, and leaves his hair in it.
• 15) MC has never once told me that he loves me, first.
• 16) MC likes Star Trek and Star Wars WAY too much
• 17) I cut my hair today, and MC didn’t even notice. He couldn’t figure out what was different.
• 18) MC didn’t ever officially propose to me. I’m not even really clear about how that whole thing happened.
• 19) MC hogs the covers in bed. He doesn’t just pull them over – he pulls ONE CORNER over, so the sheets are left in a diamond shape.
• 20) MC spanks me for not exercising – but just TRY to get him to come on a walk with me. Yeah right, he acts like he’s allergic to fresh air.

Yet, with all his little quirks – and all of the extra work he creates – I still love him. I will love him until the day I die. I wouldn’t trade him for the world.

The cane and tawse

Tigger….

Today’s Chores:

Pick up bedroom/bathroom floors

Oil wood furniture

Vacuum

Clean sinks

Take out garbage

Clean dining table

Kitchen

Plan menu for the week

Windows

Clean water cooler

Ironing

Does it seem like this list is getting longer? It sure seems that way to me!

Fit…

Thanksgiving was nice, and I didn’t overeat – much. Of course, we all ate more than we usually do, and my stomach has been paying the price, since. I did still exercise that day, and I didn’t eat sweets, so it counted as a successful day 3.

I’ve been doing simple exercises, for 30 minutes minimum. I’ve mostly been riding the stationary bike, because it’s convenient. I know it’s not very intense, but I’m really trying to make sure I do something almost every day.

Today is day 1 of my new 3 day goal. Yesterday would have been it, but I ate a donut. So far so good today, just oatmeal and coffee. I’ve found that if I use splenda and mocha mix, coffee still seems like a treat. I used to drink coffee and tea with Vanilla coffee mate, but I started reading the labels. I’m trying to avoid sugar, and hydrogenated oils, and coffee-mate has both! Mocha mix doesn’t have either one, and it has a rich creamy taste that is still satisfying.

To be tied….

So far, I’ve earned one cane or tawse cut for December 5^th. MC says he’s going to make them really hard. That’s really what I need, I know. If it’s not something I dread, it’s not an effective threat. Even though the hairbrush and paddles hurt, I don’t dread them. I’m afraid of the cane, because it cuts. It hurts, and I bleed. There are times I nearly pass out from the pain that reverberates from my ass to my head. None of those things happen with a spanking. Eventually the pain during a spanking dulls, and I can actually take more than MC is willing or able to dish out. Not so with the cane. The cane is what made me give up smoking. It’s the only thing that worked.  I’ll have to be sure to rub it down with alcohol. That makes it far less scary, because I know I’m not at risk of infection due to dust/dirt coming in contact with the cuts.

The tawse is somewhat scary to me, because it wraps, and stings, and occasionally hits my pussy and asshole. It’s very unpredictable. I certainly prefer implements that thud, rather than sting…and that’s why this is an effective punishment implement.

Three day fitness goals

Tigger….

 Today’s chores:

Clean Dining table

Dry Dust

Clean Bike and Exercise Equipment

Clean Sinks

Take out garbage

Pick up bedroom floors

Get down cobwebs

Vacuum

Clean out refrigerator

Wash out trashcans

Clean Blinds

Hot spot fire drill

10 minutes in current zone (Master Bedroom)

 It’s not as much as it sounds. I knocked it out in about an hour.

 MC might be going back to school to finish his Masters degree. He could go a couple of directions, either IT or psychology. He would be great at either one.  Poor guy had to re-do his website today. He’s working really long hours on that. I know it will be a great success when he gets it done, though.  

Fit….

Ok, new plan – instead of a week at a time, I’m making 3 day goals. Follow meal plan for 3 days in a row, exercise 30 minutes 3 days in a row. Once I screw up, it starts over, with a new three day goal. So far, I haven’t really been able to have a completely “good week” and it’s driving me nuts. So far, I’m on day two – but tomorrow is Thanksgiving. I don’t know if I can have a successful “day three” on Thanksgiving!

To be tied….

Today MC and I had planned to have some playtime. I did get my diet spanking – but we didn’t get to play as long as we had hoped. It’s been raining here, and someone was on the roof walking around. We figured it was maintenance looking for leaks. Either way, we couldn’t make any noise, and our play was halted. *sigh*. MC and I are going to have to settle for vanilla sex for a while. Definitely need to get to the Lair. Very soon. There are a couple of “munches” scheduled for December. Maybe we’ll go to those, and see what we can get started.